here we go

I am going to try to keep this blog going for as long as i feel the need to write in it, could be a week could be years who knows. today i have started my workout program for the second time, i am going to take a week to warm up tp the prograzm again and try to make it through at least one full DVD before i go hard core wich means i am going to have to push myself harder than i have in a loing time and i have to know at the end of it i will get the results i want. i mean lets face it i didnt gain this much weight over night so how could i loose it that way right? i am in the 180's right now, somewhere between 183 and 185 i want to be in the 160's so i have a good 20-25 pounds to loose. i also have to get the motivation to do some stuff sround the house, i need to make it a priority to get up and workout before i do anything in the mornings because then i will have the motivation to do everything else i need to do. last week, i think, in sunday school brother barrett taught us that the lord codemns beong idle. he doesnt want us to lay around and do nothing all day and in my house we have a list as long as my arm of things we need to do that it is just over whelming so i am going to start giving myself something every day to do on top of my chores to try to get everything done and nice. i have come to feel the full force of the lords blessings in ths last few days and lately the message i have been getting from him is that i have to have patience. so i am going to try to listen to him in the next few month and have the patience i need with m y family and work and husband and with all aspects of my life but having patience doesn't mean i need to sit around idle, it means i have to work to get the answers in need and not expect them to all come at once so that is what i plan on doing and today is day 1, i worked out for a little while i feel good now i am going to get up and clean up my house, find a project to tackle, and do something fun with my kids all before ihave to go to work tonight. and there i am going to pray my heart out that the lord will help provide for me on this monday. God bless you all in all you do and wish me luck on this journey i am taking.